Monday, December 12, 2016

A crazy feverish post from the third floor of the library

Anxiety, it is something that appears when I don't want it to and sometimes when I don't expect it.  In this case, writing two research papers combined with my procrastination have left the door wide open for my unwelcome guest.  Sleepless nights, irritability, stomach aches, shallow breathing, sallow skin and dark circles under my eyes have not helped me to feel my best.  I keep struggling and struggling to get past this mental block that I am not a good writer, I want to be perfect, I want to get a good grade, I am afraid of "failing", what was that that Winston Churchill said about failure? That quote that I have posted in my classroom at work and that I post often to remind myself of? Oh, "Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts". When I have an assignment due, specifically a paper to write for school, I start using avoidance techniques, I find everything else to do until it is the last moment and then I build up this insurmountable "monster" out of my task to accomplish.  It becomes so big, that it almost swallows me whole.

Today, this morning, I woke up and decided, that it is only a paper, I will do my best, it won't be perfect, because honestly, my writing stinks. Probably because I avoid doing it so much.  I recently read about the "evaporated people" in Japan including one young student that disappeared himself because he was so afraid of failure.  But failure isn't something we should be terrified of, it is something that happens sometimes, and we move on.  It's part of being brave, part of getting to "the other side of fear" and finding everything I want.  Today, I am "embracing the suck" a suck that I would prefer not to have to embrace, I will embrace it. Research paper, I refuse to let you own my life anymore, It's ok if I don't get a perfect score on my paper, I am trying my hardest.  Thanks Mr. Churchill I needed that reminder.


Some other great quotes from ole' Winston:


Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.
If you're going through hell, keep going.
You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life.
Courage is what it takes to stand up and speak. Courage is also what it takes to sit down and listen
Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.
A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty.
To improve is to change; to be perfect is to change often.
Never give in, never give in, never, never, never, never—in nothing, great or small, large or petty—never give in except to convictions of honor and good sense.
History will be kind to me for I intend to write it.
We make a living by what we get, but we make a life by what we give.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

For the Love of Woolx: A Review of the Woolx Basic Tee

I have always worn wool garments especially for running and outdoor adventures because of the amazing breatheability and the non-stink factor.  Wool has often had a bad rap as being too hot or itchy.  However, it remains my top favorite fabric to wear! Recently I stumbled upon a new brand of merino wool outdoor clothing and performance wear from a company called WoolX. On Facebook they were having a sale and I really liked the way their running capris looked so I purchased them.

Woolen running capris don't sound like they would be very comfortable and the last time I purchased a pair of merino wool running capris I had to return them because of the ill-fit and the saggy-ness that happened when they got sweaty during a run.  This pair was different!  The fit was great, there was a nice pocket on the side and I took them out for a trail run.  They performed super well, I didn't get too hot and they didn't sag at all. I love them and will have to buy another pair in another color!  The other great thing about these is that they do not stink!  I can wear them a couple of times before having to wash them, which is an additional plus for the environment!  Here is a picture of me enjoying my Fearless by WoolX capris:


So I tried out one of their woolx basic tee in black to see how that would perform during trail running.
 Here is my new Woolx basic tee package that arrived very quickly!  
I tried it on right away and loved it! The fit is great and the length is perfect.  Aaaand there was no itch whatsover.  WoolX guarantees their clothing will be 100% itch-free.

The other really great thing about WoolX is that the prices are awesome!  Most merino wool sportswear is very expensive, but I found that WoolX's prices are very reasonable.  I put my new shirt on and took it for a spin on the trails.  It performed very well, again, super breatheable, when I sweated I didn't get a sticky, wet or stinky feel at all.  In fact, I did not wash the shirt and just hung it up and wore it again today on another run.  Even though it still doesn't smell I may wash it this time, but I may not!
I highly recommend Woolx and right now there is a 12% off sale going on.
You can find Woolx on their facebook page  or go to woolx.com. Check them out!
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I have now washed my Woolx basic tee and followed the instructions to wash in cold water and turn inside out, I did not dry it in the dryer but just hung it over a chair to dry and then I have worn it pretty much every day! Thanks #Woolx!

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Fuego y Agua 2016: The anticipation of a baby's birth

Before I forget and get engrossed in my everyday life again, I want to write about my experiences and trip to Fuego y Agua Nicaragua 2016.

My mom once said, while waiting for my sister to finish the Leadville 100 mile race, that the anticipation and waiting for runners to finish was worse than waiting for a baby to be born.  She would know, she's had a lot of them.  This year at Fuego y Agua was like that.

I have been going to Fuego Y Agua almost every year since its inception in 2008.  I only missed the first year and then again in 2013.  I look forward to every February because I get to travel to a tropical island in the middle of winter and meet incredible people.  The other reason I go is because my brother is the race director and mastermind behind it all and it gives me an excuse to see him and help with the organization and volunteer for the race.

In 2011 I ran the 50k and finished 2nd woman.  In 2012 my brother came up with the Survival Run concept where the race is run through both volcanoes but includes challenges of different kinds that mimic some of the native islanders daily tasks and/chores.  Every year I have volunteered but have wanted to participate in the Survival Run itself.  This year, I decided was the year I would try my hand at it. This year was also different because Josue and Corinne were expecting a baby almost exactly on the date of the ultra races.

Because I was participating in the Survival Run, I was not "in" like I usually am and was not privy to any of the information or challenges that were being planned by the race staff.  All I knew is that Josue had told me it "would be harder than last year" and that most people would drop out before the first half.

I can always say that my training leaves more to be desired.  but I did train, just not a lot or enough. Last year I had volunteered for the 2015 Survival Run and had made a pact with Aimee Booth that we would be a team and try to be the first women to finish. My training consisted of mostly running, rock climbing, hiking, several technical 50k's and Bikram yoga, with a little bit of body strength training sprinkled throughout.  I know how Josue thinks, I have helped him in previous races, I've been up both volcanoes multiple times and I have completed the Hunter-Gatherer race in Texas.  I knew he would probably have tree climbing, swimming and/or diving, and eggs and/or chickens.  What I didn't know is that I would have to carry plantains up and down Concepción!  A day or two before my trip, my team mate Amie called me and informed me that due to work and family related issues she would not be able to make it.

I was ready mentally but not 100% physically.  Our trip down there was super smooth and we got to Managua Hills where we met up with several ultra-runners and three survival runners, Jamie Boyle, Mitchel Woods, and Dave Gluhareff.  After having a nice dinner, a shower and a good night's sleep we woke up for our shuttle taxi for San Jorge where we would catch a ferry to get to the island of Ometepe.  My brother had mentioned that several adventure racers were coming this year and I had the pleasure of meeting them on the shuttle.  Once I met Kyle, Paul and Dylan, I had a feeling that these guys were going to do really well.  They all had multiple expedition races under their belts and seemed super tough.

We arrived at Ometepe where Josue and Sean picked us up in Moyogalpa and took us to Santo Domingo, the race start and finish.  It felt weird not to be participating in all of the race preparations but nice at the same time.  Because one thing I know about putting on a race (even though I've only volunteered), it is super hard! Especially in a country like Nicaragua where amenities do not abound and connectivity makes things a hundred times harder.  I got to relax, meet some other runners, work on my grad coursework and hang out with my sister Abi.

Race morning came and I felt that my water bladder was too full and my pack was too heavy, and yet I knew we were probably climbing volcán Concepción first and that it would be hot! So I decided to keep it full and had super-hydrated the day before by drinking 6 x 32oz. Nalgene bottles of water mixed with electrolytes, plus several juices.  During check-in we received a colored strip of fabric and I quickly noticed that there were 4 other colors and surmised there would probably be a team challenge.  Sure enough! After we started, my green team comprised of 13 people had to carry 8 large bamboo poles down the beach about 3.5 kilometers then had to build a raft and carry 2 out of 3 rocks to an island.  Our raft was build pretty well but not buoyant enough to carry two rocks and one was lost on the way over.  Luckily, we had one rock left on the beach and had to do a second trip out.  At the island we were to gather a container with our team color on it full of eggs and pieces of a puzzle that we were to complete on the mainland.  By the time we swam back to the mainland, the rest of our team had completed most of the puzzle and were waiting for us to disassemble the raft.  We received our bib numbers and were told that we were no longer a team but we would have to show an unbroken egg at each checkpoint.  I quickly packed 2 extra eggs in my pack for a total of 3 just in case.
As I ran up the dirt road I came to the first challenge in the actual race, getting 20 lbs of plantains and carrying them in a feed sack unharmed.  I continued up the road and was passed by Morgan McKay who was moving at a really quick clip.  I saw a little store and stopped to buy a gatorade, knowing that the volcano climb was imminent. The trail turned up and we started climbing.  Pretty soon I arrived at the second challenge, a tree climb.  There was a choice of 3 trees and they were all slippery and sweaty from all the previous climbers.  We were instructed to climb and get our slingshot rubbers to make a slingshot.  I quickly climbed up, chopped a y-shaped branch and took off with my plantains.

Little by little the climb got steeper and steeper.  It seemed to never end.  Helene passed me, as well as Arian and several others.  I was also passing people, people that were already out of water and getting heat exhaustion and we weren't even past the halfway up point on the volcano.  I was really conserving my water because I knew there were no refills till we got to the bottom.  Some people were saying that we had to carry the plantains to the top but I wouldn't believe it.  Well, once I got to the top, I was sure I was going to miss the cutoff but Frasier said I still had 30 mins AND that I was to keep carrying the plantains till the next checkpoint around the other side of the volcano rim.  I hustled to get to the next checkpoint because I wanted to make the cutoff.  At Robin Johanson's challenge, we had 5 tries to shoot at a small target.  We had to hit the target once to be able to collect our first bracelet.  I practiced and it seemed that my poorly constructed slingshot was pretty acurate so I went ahead and made my 5 shots.  2 of them were super close and the rest were waaaay off, so I quickly packed up and took off.  My heart sank when Robin informed me we had to carry the plantains to the bottom.  I was moving pretty quickly and felt great, still had water and I felt strong.  But as the darkness came, things got a little harder.  I started falling, and my quads started to feel it.  Billy McKenna caught up to me at a point and said he wanted to buddy up during the dark which I was grateful for.  He had been out of water for hours and at this point my water was super low, I had already given some to Mitchell who was suffering pretty badly at this point.

 We made our way slowly down the volcano and kept getting passed by people who had not made the cutoff and had dropped their plantains.  I kept hope that I would somehow make the cutoff at the bottom so I kept my plantains.  Towards the base, the sweepers caught up to us, we could hear the checkpoint at Los Ramos but I was told that I had missed the cutoff by 1 hour so I finally gave up and dumped my plantains and continued on.  When we got to the road, my quads were so shot that I couldn't even run, because my knees kept buckling I had to hold onto Billy.  What sweet relief it was to sit down at the checkpoint and drink a cold coke.  I was super bummed that I had not made the cutoff and that my race was over.  I really really wanted to finish but at least I knew that Helene and Morgan were still out there and one of them would probably finish. I had a feeling that Helene had the determination and that this race had been a thorn in her side since last year.  Plus she had signed up for the Devil's Double.

The rest of the race was a waiting game, waiting for runners, waiting for the baby to be born.  It was an incredible moment to see Paul and Dylan cross the finish line as well as the other 3 men but when Helene crossed, it was a victory for me  My eyes were misty and I almost felt as if I were crossing the finish line myself.  I have incredible respect for her and dream of being such an amazing athlete as she is.

The beer mile came and went with its usual hilarity and craziness, we were able to raise almost $1000 for the schools on Ometepe!  Then the planning and organizing for the ultras began with more lack of sleep.

On Feb. 6th the 100 and 50k ultras began at 5am, many of the runners had run FyA previously but many had not.  The day turned into a hot one and people began to experience heat exhaustion, especially some of the 50 and 100k-ers  Many dropped out, many didn't make the time cutoffs but all were amazing for coming out to run such a difficult and crazy race.  The only sleep I got that day was about 1 hour or 2 sleeping on a chair at the finish line, waiting, waiting for runners and waiting to hear if that baby had been born.  I had to leave and catch my ferry and wasn't able to see the first women finishers for the 100k, but I heard it was amazing.  Helene was not only the 1st woman to finish Survival Run Nicaragua but also finished the Devil's Double, which very few people have managed to do.  My friend Meredith was first woman over the 100k finish line, which I was so proud of since this is her longest race ever and last year she only made it to the 50k.

The adventure didn't quite end after the race.  The boys and I jumped on a bus hoping to make it to the 7:30 ferry since our flight left Managua at 2:30.  We arrived at the ferry, bought tickets and jumped on.  I was so tired that I fell asleep for about 1 hour then woke up to find out that due to high winds the ferry would not be leaving anytime soon, and possibly not that same day.  I had resigned myself that we would be missing our flights when I noticed that a lady was trying to schedule a flight off the island.  She said that if we got 12 people together it would cost $100 apiece.  I told her I would like to go but that the situation with my card would not allow me to access any money at that time.  She said that she would trust me to PayPal her and she would cover me and the boys.  So off we went and boarded a Cessna and had an incredible and amazing 20 minute flight straight to the Managua airport.  The boys and I had just enough time to grab a quick bite to eat and get to security and then we were off!

Now I sit here looking out at the winter wonderland of snow and missing the company of all of the incredible racers and volunteers that FyA attracts every year. It was a big year for firsts: A woman finished, a woman finished the Devil's Double, and many racers finished and or attempted FyA for the first time.  Baby Benjamin Oliver was born on Sunday night or early Monday morning!  He is the cutest baby in the world.  All that waiting was worth it.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Surveying with Papi circa early fall of 2007 in Tennessee

My father, Papi, as we call him, used to say the funniest things. Still does on the occasion I get to spend more time with him.  
One day while working on a land survey with him, we got to talking about where the name ‘Stephens’ came from.  
"It’s a viking name" he said to me.  "Actually papi, it’s a name from the British isles, an English name", I responded.  
"No, it’s a viking norman name" he insisted.  
"Well maybe originally" says I, "but more recently an english name".  
Looking thoughtful and hopeful all at once, he said, “I bet they were the really nasty vikings.”
I laughed so hard.  Maybe I was just in a giddy mood, but it struck me as very funny, and you would agree with me if you knew my father.  He revels in the extreme and shocking.  Comments like “I’m about to pee my britches” are not uncommon to hear while working with him.   He gets frustrates so easily and takes on an ‘Australian-g’day-mate’ accent when frustrated with the surveying instruments.  

"Poor, poor Pa"

There was that one time that Suzie came in and said to someone (I can’t recall to whom she said it right now, maybe mom?) “Poor poor Pa” and the expression of authentic concern furrowed her brow.  ”Why?” someone asked her.  ”Because he farts so much”.  She must have been about 5 years old at that point. 

Learning about life, death and burial through farming

Well, I don’t recall the exact details of this story but I’ll do my best and feel free to correct, add, etc, in the comments:  
We lived in Ohio I was 13 or 14 and we had several goats.  My two white saanen goats were my pets and companions.  I fancied myself a type of Heidi, which was one of my favourite stories, and named them both Shneehopli, I believe it means ‘snow hopper’ and Shwanli, which means ‘little swan’.  I had always loved goats, I loved their antics, I loved to milk them and I loved how they were such characters.  These two goats were super smart and could open door latches and feed bins.  Shwanli died because she got into the feed bin and got very sick with diarheea and never recovered.  Shneehopli lived longer and had a kid which we innocently named “Horny”. He had horns, so it seemed natural to name him “Horny”.  Little did we realize that he was “horny” in more ways than just the horns on his head!  Thanks to my father, we were asked to change his name which we didn’t quite understand at that time. I don’t even remember what we re-named him, I’ll forever remember him as “Horny”.  I just remember that one evening my dad came home from work and said, “what are the kids calling this goat?”, he had a look which I now understand as a parent myself, it’s that kind of look where you are trying not to laugh at something that would be inappropriate for kids that age to be privy to. But since my mom tried to keep all of that reproductive and sexual information away from us, we had no clue.  Anyways, Horny was sold or traded to another person for another doe, who we promptly named “black devil”, she also had horns, and yes, she was black. The ‘kids’ (Stephens children) always did the animal chores in those days, which usually consisted of tying up the goats in fresh brushy areas so that they wouldn’t run around loose on the property and jump on cars as they were bound to do if they were loose.  Once in awhile, my dad would go out to check on the animals to see if we were doing well and taking the right kind of care of them.  I remember one particular evening, we were about to leave for the Passion play and my dad decided that we didn’t know what we were doing with the goats so he moved them from where we had tied them and unfortunately tied them on the side of a steep-ish hill.  I knew it wasn’t a good idea and since I was the one who really knew the goats I was upset because they tangle around the trees so easily.  Well, that night when we got home, Josué and I had to go out to put the goats away and unfortunately, Shneehopli had tangled herself around the tree and since it was a steep hill she had lost her footing and never regained it.  She had hung herself.  I was so upset and went to tell my dad.  He said that Josué and I had to go and bury her right away.  We had an animal cemetery of sorts near the old barn so we got a shovel and proceeded to try to dig a hole, at night, that was large enough for this huge goat.  We dug and hit rocks but decided that we thought the hole was large enough to accommodate this bloated goat carcass.  So we dragged her over and lo and behold she didn’t really fit as well as we’d hoped.  We put her down in there with her four legs sticking up and put the dirt over her.  Because of the rigor mortis and the depth of the hole, all 4 of her legs remained sticking up in the air out of the hole! So we put 4 large-ish rocks on each leg to try and keep them flat on the ground and then we went to bed.  My dad never checked to see how we did and the next day when we went outside, we noticed that the rigor mortis was stronger that the rocks.  Two of the rocks had fallen off and there were two goat legs sticking up out of the dirt.  I don’t mean like an inch or two, I’m talking a good 7-10 inches, hooves and all.  We piled many rocks on there and a few days later the rocks had been pushed away and the legs gnawed on by a wild animal.  After that we put more rocks on there so the poor goat could rest in peace.  So Black Devil became the new goat on the premises and that is how I remember that story.  

Wednesday, October 16, 2013

hunter gatherer survival race 2013


Facing my fears and overcoming my challenges

October 7, 2013 at 9:31pm
I feel like it was less than a month after Fuego y Agua 2013 this year that my brother called me to tell me that he had come up with a new race concept/idea and was going to implement it in October.  That idea was Hunter Gatherer Survival race, a sister race to Fuego y Agua survival race.  I thought it was a brilliant idea and told him I would be there to run it.
As the year went by and I had so many wedding preparations I changed my status to volunteer for the race instead.  Josué kept insisting I would run in it.  As the time crept closer and closer and the wedding took precedence, my training was non-existent save a couple of 5 milers a month and a bike ride here and there. I bought my plane ticket because even if I wasn't going to participate in the run I was determined to be there for my brother's race.  I told Josué that I was definitely not running it and that I would definitely be a volunteer, but even then he was tight lipped about any of the race challenges and did not remove my name from the runner's list.
About a week before I was to leave for the race, I kept thinking to myself why I didn't want to do this race.  I had so many great excuses, I wasn't trained, I had no clue how to make fire, I hadn't done the things I needed to do to prepare, I had a corneal abrasion in my left eye and it was hard to run with glasses, the list went on.  All of a sudden as I was riding my bike, I realized that I was actually afraid to do it, I was afraid of failure and the unknown. 
The next day during my lunch break I ordered a Mora bushcraft carbon steel knife, "just in case".  The knife arrived a day and a half before I left and that's when I texted Josué and told him if he didn't mind, could I please change my mind and run the 50k survival run?  He didn't answer but I knew that he expected me to do it all along.  My flight left on Friday morning at 6:45am and on Thursday night I was doing what I do best: procrastinated packing.  This entails cramming a bunch of stuff into a bag at the last minute and hoping I have everything when I arrive.  I hadn't read any of the lists on the website so I printed all the info, the plant ID stuff and ran around after work picking up a glow stick and para-cord from Wal-mart, a waterproof headlamp at the outdoor store and then looking through my camping gear for my steri-pen which I'm glad I didn't find by the way, after seeing the water we had to purify!  I ended up having to take my Katahdin pump filter which was a lot heavier and bulkier than the steri-pen but didn't require batteries, and I heard several runners say their steri-pens malfunctioned after the river swim.  My husband came home from work on Thursday night and saw me frantically stuffing stuff into my bag and then he saw the para-cord and said, "wait, you're running the race?!"  He knows me well enough to know that I am super stubborn and didn't try and dissuade me.
The next morning, 3:30am came too quickly and my friend was here to drive me to the airport.  During my flight, I read the lists over and over and read the plant identification over and over wondering what my brother had in store for us! My layover in Dallas ended up being longer due to plane delays and I started worrying about making it on time to packet pickup at 5.  I had just found out that Camp Eagle was 2.5 hours drive from San Antonio and I still had no food for the race! Once I arrived at STA I could not for the life of me find my reservation number for the rental car and ended up taking the wrong shuttle to the wrong rental car place.  I finally got my car, found a Wal-mart, rushed around grabbing fruit, jerky, bars, coconut water, snake bite kits, magnesium, and some other supplies for the race.  Once I got on highway 10 I looked at the GPS and my ETA was 4:50pm, I thought there was no way I would make it on time for packet pickup! I even received a text from Josué, "Don't be late for packet pickup, 5pm sharp, bring your knife".  I was not dressed for running at all and although I do not recommend this, I did change completely while driving (legally) 80mph.  Thank God for straight Texas roads and 80mph!  I'm pretty sure that I would have gotten a ticket for indecent exposure if a cop would have seen me.
As I drove my GPS time had changed to 4:00pm and I started to relax a little, so when I saw a sign that said 'The Best Deer Jerky in Texas' I couldn't resist!  I have to say that part of Texas is so beautiful, it's a different kind of beauty but it's amazing and feels so remote.  I arrived at camp eagle office at 3:55pm and signed in, got my bracelet and headed over to see where my cabin was.  Josué was in his room looking super busy and after a quick hug and hello I headed over to see who my cabin mates were.  Lo and behold, I knew most of them and ended up with some good old friends and met some good new ones.  The excitement, and anxiety in the air was palpable and then it was 5pm.
Our packet pickup challenge was to carry a log (huge and heavy) for about 1.5 miles up to the top of a hill across the river where we would be given our race number.  At the top we would leave the log and carve our race number into it for the next day.  My log I named 'Margarita' and tried to make friends with the fact that I would probably be carrying it again the next day so I might as well enjoy it! The terrain was rough and rugged but I made it!  I quickly carved a '50' into it and ran down the other side of the hill down to the river. I waded to the other side of the river and started down the trail back to the start line when Sharpie told me to keep following the flags.  I kept going, caught up with Chris Dutton and together we realized that we were headed the wrong way so we doubled back and got back to the pavilion to get our packets.  At the pre-race dinner that night, Josué gave everyone the run-down on the race the next day without telling us what challenges we would have.  He just said, don't give up just because you can't pass one of the challenges, just do your best. And that's what I decided to do.  I went to bed around 9pm and got a little bit of sleep even though there was a lot of ruckus between teenagers outside the cabin ( planted by Josué?) and snoring, and dragging of mattresses, and slamming of doors and all kinds of other noises!  I rolled out of bed at 2:30am for gear check at 3:15.  I decided wisely to wear running tights because I know my brother and I knew he would have us climbing something at some point!  Plus a cold front was supposed to come in that day.
Due to some unforeseen event, the race start was pushed back 30 mins and then the race started!  The first task was to make our running footwear.  Luna sandals.  I knew from the bib pickup the day before that the terrain was rugged, rocky and rough, and I know my brother! I made my sandals pretty quickly and was the second person to leave the start line, with Corrine right behind me.  The first couple of hours were frustrating with the sandals, the strap kept stretching and they kept coming untied.  At some point during the day I finally tied them so tight and wove them around so much that they stayed that way till the end of the race.  I think that for the first 4 hours, I literally had to adjust my sandals at least every 10 mins.  After picking up 'Margarita' at the top of the hill I had to carry her down to the river, where I put a life vest on her and was told to swim/wade over two spillways to the next checkpoint.  In my head I thought oh this will be short, but no, it was a little over a mile!  I stayed with Tyler Tomasello through most of the swim which helped keep my mind off of all the possible leeches and snakey things that could be in the water below.  Only a little frog jumped in my face so it wasn't bad and I didn't swim through any leech nests.  'Margarita' my log, kept slipping out of the PFD and once she sank to the bottom of the duck weed forrest.  My sandals kept coming untied and at one point I got so tangled up in the duckweed that I panicked.  I felt like I was in a horror film and that the plants were alive and pulling me down.  After thrashing about for a bit, I finally fought through that tangle and made it over the second spillway/dam to the checkpoint where I was given my first bead.  I was thankful to say goodbye to Margarita at that point! After several miles of running and stopping every 5 minutes to adjust and re-tie my sandals, I came to a hole in the ground and a volunteer told me that the next challenge was to crawl around in the cave and memorize 7 symbols.  I had been running with Chris Dutton and John Taylor at that time followed Chris Dutton down into the cave and found all the symbols.  I ended up carving them into a little rock with another little rock so I didn't forget them.  Tyler Tomasello was on his way out of the cave and said ''watch out for the snake''! Luckily I only saw bats and frogs in there and I passed the memorization test no problem and left that checkpoint with my first amulet 'fail'.
At that point I was in 4th or 5th place and Corinne was in 1st!  On the next leg of the run, I was coming down a steep hill when I saw Corinne coming up the hill and realized that I must have made a mistake and skipped a part of the course!  So I had to backtrack with Dalton who had caught up to us and made the same mistake.  We turned around and found the spot where we went off course.  We fixed the spot so no other runners would make the same mistake but apparently some already had!  At the next checkpoint we had a plant challenge where we had to make a water vessel out of a prickly pear cactus and answer a short quiz on its medicinal properties, I knew how to do that and also passed the throwing stick challenge, I received 1 more bead and found out later I was supposed to have 2.  I left that checkpoint with my throwing stick and was told to collect timber for a fire at the next checkpoint.  In my ignorance, I picked a bundle of twigs!  ha ha.  I found out, that is not the way to start a bowdrill fire!  Once I arrived at the fire making checkpoint, I caught up to many of the runners trying to start their fires.  Some had breezed through because of prior practice and some were still struggling to get that little ember.  After 4 different bows, countless 'cap stones', about 5 spindles, many 'firesticks' with little holes burned into them, and hours of struggling and frustration, I finally went into one of the tipis to see if I could be inspired by the atmosphere of the natives and told myself, "I will carve the perfect air notch into this wood and I will succeed", I drilled and drilled and lo and behold a perfect little orange ember, which I dumped into the timber nest.  I can't quite explain the feeling of amazement, exhilaration, relief, and amazement that I had at that moment.  I screamed "i did it!" over and over and ran out of the tipi with my flaming nest.  I won't lie, I had some tears of joy.  Luckily, Isaiah was still there and he had just completed his fire challenge in an hour less than me with the same emotional response.  So he finished his stick throw, which I had failed, and we took off together for Prospector's cabin.  We ran pretty steadily along some jeep roads and bushwhacked as fast as we could to try and make up for the lost time we had spent at the fire making challenge.  We saw the cabin but we had to loop around and go back and forth several times before getting to a steep climb up to the cabin.  On the previous checkpoint we had been told to collect Algerita and Juniper on our way to the cabin.  The challenges at the cabin were easy: a quiz on the medicinal properties of the plants, which I got 100% and then making a rope from yucca, which I had learned to do a long time ago.  The guys there instructed us to cut a bow stave and make a bow before the next checkpoint.  We were also told that a cutoff time was approaching so we took off quickly for the next checkpoint.  By the time we arrived to the last checkpoint it was very dark and a group of other runners greeted us by saying, "welcome to the 7th circle of hell", I thought "uh oh", but tried to ignore the fact that they were trying to drag travois they had just made with 150 lbs of rocks.  The volunteers told me that I needed to climb a tree to cut down arrows and had to complete two bow shooting challenges and build a travois.  At this point I heard that no one had gone on to do the 100k which I had suspected would happen after seeing the terrain, and that the cutoff time was approaching quickly.  I climbed the tree easily and cut my arrows down.  The bow challenge was tough because the wind had picked up quite a bit by this time and it was pitch black.  The only light I had was my headlamp.  Isaiah was up in the tree trying to get his arrows when I heard a crack, a yell and a crash, so we all went over to see if he was ok.  A branch had broken and luckily he had caught himself on another branch.  We finished our challenge without the travois and left that checkpoint with another guy named Justin














.  By now it had really gotten pretty chilly and I was happy that I had chosen to wear running tights in the anticipation that there would have to be some tree climbing involved if I know my brother! I put on my long-sleeved wool shirt and ran/speed-walked depending on the terrain.  As we got closer and closer to the finish line, I felt like a horse running to water and wanted to move faster and faster.  For awhile we passed abandoned travois but I kept seeing tracks and said aloud several times, "there is still a travois out on the trail, what a BEAST!" I found out soon that the beast was the awesome, crazy beast-ette Corrine who had pulled that travois through some really rough stuff.  We passed her and Tony saying we were trying to make the cutoff and wanted to make it back before it really started pouring. The last 3 miles were cruel because they looped around near the finish line where we could see the lights then we had to go in the opposite direction for a mile before finally facing in the right direction again. It started to rain and thunder and lightning and I took off as fast as I could toward the finish line.  It was so fun and so challenging.  I was so happy to see all the other runners there cheering and waiting for us last ones to come in.  What I didn't know was that through earning the beads, you could earn amulets, so I actually got 5 out of 7 beads and ended up with the amulets: I, DID, FAIL.  But I knew that I really hadn't failed and that I can actually make a fire with a bow drill!  Lesson learned: You can do anything that you put your mind to and that you are stronger than you think.  Just Do It!  That's my story and I am sticking to it.